welcome marching March.
berbaris tugasan menunggu dalam March ni.
and i am trying to prepare myself for the month.
actually apa dalam mind aku is my last two days temper pasal budak opis buat silap in listing the used books donated dari org2 uni ni.
yes, the simplest thing dalam listing je pon, apa yg aku nk kecoh sgt.
but to me, hey-listing-buku-je-kot-nape-salah.
she kept saying that "cik lain la, cik buat kj teliti, saya tak".
eh.
tapi aku punya frust aritu mmg takleh blah.
aku tringt adik aku ckp, time ko marah, sedeyh, cuba ko g tgk muka ko kat cermin.
mesti klakar. pastu ko pk lah nk terus marah ke tak.
haha. ngeng.
dekat 20min aku membebel kat budak tu.
aku cakap 'jgn menyampuk, biar saya abes bebel dulu'.
haha.
dia ckp dia x brani nak janji dia x buat lg.
aku tatau la apa yg dia rasa sbnranya.
no improvement.
selesa dgn apa yg dia ade, knowledge x nm tmbah, xmo berubah.
aku anta g kursus, ajar dia sikit2.
ini dia balas.
sedih pedih medih..
aku sbnrnya tatau, is it hard task yg aku bagi.
dia kata tak. dah tu? ko dtg kj buat apa?
susun buku susun newspaper kutip statistik gaji seribu tiga?
aritu plak aku nya pcaya je dia buat apa since aku bz nguruskan bnda lain.
then ko submit je benda tu kat org luar plak tu.
lps anta baru aku semak, mmg sakitnya la hai ati.
dat day masa dia keluarkan listing and pack the books i was just like 'are you sure listing buku ni sama dlm boxes tu? dah semak betul2?'
dia kompidem kata dah semak.
so skang, aku rasa mcm kena pangggg je.
aku perfectionist sgt ke?
tak perlu perfectionist kalau stakat ko jumpa salah dlm listing buku je kot.
(pastu dtg lah sebeban ingatan mistakes dia dlm statistik, drafting surat semua).
pk balik, aku ngan akak ni terbalik.
mcm dia bos aku.
aku buat smua bnda, dia tlg proceed je.
baru rasa nak marah?
pastu tetiba last meeting pengurusan ko calon nama dia APC lah kan.
padan muka kauuu kaw2!
alaaahai...
blues
sunday blues, ramai plak budak opis cuti.
what's in my mind is about the post dalam IIUM Confession yang merendah-rendahkan uni yang memberi ilmu dan rezeki kepada diriku ini.
memang sedikit hangin lah diriku ini.
kalau bukan uni ini yang memberi peluang kepada Melayu, sapa lagi nak amik tau psl bangsa kita yang suka berpecah belah sesama sendiri ni?
kalaupun bukan memberi manfaat kat ko, cuba ko fikir sikit manfaat yg dicurahkan kepada org2 yang diberi peluang blaja di IPT, especially bagi yang x berkemampuan.
it is about peluang.
so ko nk ckp 4.00 flat uni aku ni dgn UIA, UKM semua tak setaraf.
dah kalau ko bijak ko mai sini masuk uni ni, pastu score 4.00 flat aku nk tengok.
dapat?
macam-macam hal.
kita fight kot nak dpt research uni utk naikkan ranking uni, tapi percent kita besar.
bajet pun dah makin shrink.
ko tak tau betapa struggle nya kami2 bkerja, dalam minded Melayu yang dimanja-manja.
alahai anak bangsa.
dah takde benda sgt ke nak pk.
manusia makin tertekan.
kehidupan makin sesak.
jadi semua isu dicuit.
minyak dah naik ke 2.50 seliter Ron 95, sedeyh tau.
huhu.
what's in my mind is about the post dalam IIUM Confession yang merendah-rendahkan uni yang memberi ilmu dan rezeki kepada diriku ini.
memang sedikit hangin lah diriku ini.
kalau bukan uni ini yang memberi peluang kepada Melayu, sapa lagi nak amik tau psl bangsa kita yang suka berpecah belah sesama sendiri ni?
kalaupun bukan memberi manfaat kat ko, cuba ko fikir sikit manfaat yg dicurahkan kepada org2 yang diberi peluang blaja di IPT, especially bagi yang x berkemampuan.
it is about peluang.
so ko nk ckp 4.00 flat uni aku ni dgn UIA, UKM semua tak setaraf.
dah kalau ko bijak ko mai sini masuk uni ni, pastu score 4.00 flat aku nk tengok.
dapat?
macam-macam hal.
kita fight kot nak dpt research uni utk naikkan ranking uni, tapi percent kita besar.
bajet pun dah makin shrink.
ko tak tau betapa struggle nya kami2 bkerja, dalam minded Melayu yang dimanja-manja.
alahai anak bangsa.
dah takde benda sgt ke nak pk.
manusia makin tertekan.
kehidupan makin sesak.
jadi semua isu dicuit.
minyak dah naik ke 2.50 seliter Ron 95, sedeyh tau.
huhu.
struggle
i am so blessed these days.
terima kasih Allah for all the rahmat You give- friends and crowd, and rezekis.
i'v been reading few entries framing sounded like 'jgn igt org result tak bagus tak bleh g jauh'.
its fine to comfort them who related, but the same ways membuatkan org high achievers feel 'owh, kalau gitu tak yah la score tinggi2, buat lek je lah exam, ala kadar.kalau good score tak semestinya goes well in future' kinda thing.
it makes high achievers feel crap you know.
then membuatkan org2 lemau nak study.
mcm bersalah plak dapat good scores.
tau, kdg org rendah score tapi kj bagus, kdg org high achievers tak leh perform time keja.
tapi, in term of exam, jangan la cakap camtu.
mak sentap nakkk..
aku pun kdg deliver speech tak fluent.
lost words, dan kdg2 audience sambung ayat.
pastu sesama gelak.
i am not saying i had excellent nau in my exams, but boleh dikatakan hokay la.
but you know that not all people born excel cenggitu je.
they struggle on that.
bertahajud, solat hajat, minta dengan Allah, tak tdo malam, sacrifice times.
tetambah plak bebudak bidang core mcm medic, acc, law.
ok la kalau nk kata yg score kurang pun buat semua tu, tapi my highlight is pada yng score kurang ko study tak berapa org study ko g dating, main2 time asgmt pastu claim "alaa, high achievers tak menjanjikan masa depan" . kau rasa?
ateleast they are complying one of criteria di mata interviewer hokay.
lain la kalo ko mmg ade softskills yg bagus bleh convince org kj.
atau mmg dah tertulis di luhmahfuz ko mmg excel dalam life ko kan.
me struggle very much to get score yang telah dapat.
as for me, struggle as much u can, to get good score or not, depends on your struggleness tu la.
tapi slalunya Allah dah btau "those yang berusaha, pasti akan dapat apa yg diusahakan".
these feeling is when most of people around yg nampak tak brapa nak 'berusaha' pastu duk kata 'alaa..result tinggi pon ...bla..bla..bla..tgk dia tu...bla..bla..dulu blaja kemain excellent, skang tgk, aku lebih..bla.bla.'
eh engkau!
emosi plak ai.
ahad aritu ade recognition day on Hari Inovasi.
and I saw people who got recognition from uni, and riak muka masing2 mmg deserved.
since i was among them, kita rasa dihargai dalam menjalani amanah dan tanggungjawab.
it is not like riak you know, i was like "alhamdulillah, then we would work harder, this is a motivation, and inspiration to us" kinda thing.
how struggle we were in our routines.
some of them aku pnah jumpa balik kj dah nak maghrib.
some of them tak berkira time buat kj.
after all, do not sound like 'alaa.depa kaki kipas' and those all bad things, tak baik.
mmg kalau ikutkan penggiliran to get that award tu ada kat most department.
rezeki is masing2 lah kan..
buleh dak kalau pk yg baik2.
amik yang positive dari mereka2 ni, them apply.
depa dapat, kita dapat.
even the recognition award refers to my 2015 punya kerja, but i positively put my 2016 as my bz-ness year which deserved to be highlighted.
and the most thing i sacrificed much on 2016 was to focus on Anugerah Kualiti Rektor, pelaporan 2016.
giler aku tercabar dgn mantan TKP last year masuk tak menang.
setiap meeting kena perli.
atlast aku buat dua org, amik idea je ramai2.
and Allah gives us Naib Johan. dia punya seronok terbawa2 sampai ke hari ni.
penat lelah weyh. org bcuti chrismast kita buat report.
org celeb newyear kita dtg opis.
bergaduh2 selisih faham.
Allah itu baik, dan sayang kita semua. Dia bagi.
selepas episod tukar tempat keja 2013, i can tell that 2013 and 2014 were the years i built the trust and believeness that the mgt could count on me in doing things to sama-sama naikkan department ni.
and 2015 i got lots of tasks (amekaw!).
2016 kita harvest dia punya hasil.
and i could tell that 2016 is my bright year, since my previous bright year is 2010.
more years to go.
hope istiqamah,
and Allah, pls give me strength.
semoga diconvertkan tanggungjawab ini sebagai ibadah.
mom always says, there are much ways to make her proud, use your brain.
ada ilmu, jangan bongkak, tawakal.
and i kept her words, sampai mati.
inshaAllah.
terima kasih Allah for all the rahmat You give- friends and crowd, and rezekis.
i'v been reading few entries framing sounded like 'jgn igt org result tak bagus tak bleh g jauh'.
its fine to comfort them who related, but the same ways membuatkan org high achievers feel 'owh, kalau gitu tak yah la score tinggi2, buat lek je lah exam, ala kadar.kalau good score tak semestinya goes well in future' kinda thing.
it makes high achievers feel crap you know.
then membuatkan org2 lemau nak study.
mcm bersalah plak dapat good scores.
tau, kdg org rendah score tapi kj bagus, kdg org high achievers tak leh perform time keja.
tapi, in term of exam, jangan la cakap camtu.
mak sentap nakkk..
aku pun kdg deliver speech tak fluent.
lost words, dan kdg2 audience sambung ayat.
pastu sesama gelak.
i am not saying i had excellent nau in my exams, but boleh dikatakan hokay la.
but you know that not all people born excel cenggitu je.
they struggle on that.
bertahajud, solat hajat, minta dengan Allah, tak tdo malam, sacrifice times.
tetambah plak bebudak bidang core mcm medic, acc, law.
ok la kalau nk kata yg score kurang pun buat semua tu, tapi my highlight is pada yng score kurang ko study tak berapa org study ko g dating, main2 time asgmt pastu claim "alaa, high achievers tak menjanjikan masa depan" . kau rasa?
ateleast they are complying one of criteria di mata interviewer hokay.
lain la kalo ko mmg ade softskills yg bagus bleh convince org kj.
atau mmg dah tertulis di luhmahfuz ko mmg excel dalam life ko kan.
me struggle very much to get score yang telah dapat.
as for me, struggle as much u can, to get good score or not, depends on your struggleness tu la.
tapi slalunya Allah dah btau "those yang berusaha, pasti akan dapat apa yg diusahakan".
these feeling is when most of people around yg nampak tak brapa nak 'berusaha' pastu duk kata 'alaa..result tinggi pon ...bla..bla..bla..tgk dia tu...bla..bla..dulu blaja kemain excellent, skang tgk, aku lebih..bla.bla.'
eh engkau!
emosi plak ai.
ahad aritu ade recognition day on Hari Inovasi.
and I saw people who got recognition from uni, and riak muka masing2 mmg deserved.
since i was among them, kita rasa dihargai dalam menjalani amanah dan tanggungjawab.
it is not like riak you know, i was like "alhamdulillah, then we would work harder, this is a motivation, and inspiration to us" kinda thing.
how struggle we were in our routines.
some of them aku pnah jumpa balik kj dah nak maghrib.
some of them tak berkira time buat kj.
after all, do not sound like 'alaa.depa kaki kipas' and those all bad things, tak baik.
mmg kalau ikutkan penggiliran to get that award tu ada kat most department.
rezeki is masing2 lah kan..
buleh dak kalau pk yg baik2.
amik yang positive dari mereka2 ni, them apply.
depa dapat, kita dapat.
even the recognition award refers to my 2015 punya kerja, but i positively put my 2016 as my bz-ness year which deserved to be highlighted.
and the most thing i sacrificed much on 2016 was to focus on Anugerah Kualiti Rektor, pelaporan 2016.
giler aku tercabar dgn mantan TKP last year masuk tak menang.
setiap meeting kena perli.
atlast aku buat dua org, amik idea je ramai2.
and Allah gives us Naib Johan. dia punya seronok terbawa2 sampai ke hari ni.
penat lelah weyh. org bcuti chrismast kita buat report.
org celeb newyear kita dtg opis.
bergaduh2 selisih faham.
Allah itu baik, dan sayang kita semua. Dia bagi.
selepas episod tukar tempat keja 2013, i can tell that 2013 and 2014 were the years i built the trust and believeness that the mgt could count on me in doing things to sama-sama naikkan department ni.
and 2015 i got lots of tasks (amekaw!).
2016 kita harvest dia punya hasil.
and i could tell that 2016 is my bright year, since my previous bright year is 2010.
more years to go.
hope istiqamah,
and Allah, pls give me strength.
semoga diconvertkan tanggungjawab ini sebagai ibadah.
mom always says, there are much ways to make her proud, use your brain.
ada ilmu, jangan bongkak, tawakal.
and i kept her words, sampai mati.
inshaAllah.
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