bff engaged

last week (weekend for Klang Valley and seangkatan), i was invited to be with my bff for an engagement. her 2nd engagement actually. the excitement was double actually, even i saw her face like lebih kepada redha. mungkin tak sepenuh hati, atau ade bahagian dalam hati yang dia tengah pupuk untuk get through the day as taqdir since we are not young anymore so accepting this without banyak sangat argument mungkin adalah jalan terbaik.

yes, i did advice - if she wanted to say no, then list why, begitulah sebaliknya. and she said no reason on why dia nak reject. mungkin ade satu dua points tapi itu adalah alasan ciptaan semata. so, after she did istikharah dan doa (which is aku tgk doa dia tak sekejap mcm biasa after each solat hehe), i really think this is her fate. dan benda yang "eh betul ke tak ni" tu semuanya permainan perasaan. and as a good friend yang i do believe that Allah sent to be with her, i need to support on whatever decision yang dia amik. 

along the preparation yang sepanjang 2 hari tu i did my best to assist apa yang boleh since her family are very nice and treat me mcm famili jugak - her dad picked me up from airport lepas travel (without her okeh), her mom cooked me breakfast, her sista did baking me my birthday cake once, and her adik is my prudential agent omg, etc etc. however setan did whisper to me a few times - so after this what will happen to you, will you become a story or what. huh, the feeling is not good at all. I manage to cover all that with - Allah has better plan for me of course. hiduplah seperti biasa.

i am beyond happy for my friend.
selepas mcm2 yang dia lalui, i hope this is a final.
hope she gets inspire with her own life.
i believe the man would take care of her at his best.
Baarakallah.

all the best beb.

at first mmg nk g engagement dia je.
but after the invitation, tiber kena attend kursus on that week.
and my sista tiber juge kna register training at MMU.
semuanya bukan kebetulan, ia adalah suratan yg Allah dah atur, cantik.
mulanya i arranged for a hangout with once-a-year-man, tapi dia ada hal dan Allah bagi benda lain.
Perancangan Allah lebih baik.
Kan...

updates

hi there.

just wanna share some stories from life back then.
yesterday, and about 4 days ago my housemate needed to balik kg since her mother kena operate.
so tinggallah daku keseorangan di rumah. i did ask a friend to come but dia ada hal, so utk pujuk hati i keep myself with positives quotes - sampai bila nak mengharap orang, kan.
so, since rumah pun dah pasang securities yang boleh mententeramkan takut i ni, so i stay je lah.
ajak anak buah buat penguat semangat pon, semua tak leh pakai.

cik tee informed dia dapat training kat cyberjaya, so lari lah sikit schedule activities yg dah plan.
then i have reshuffle my plan, i kna gerak awal. this friday for sure.
gigih kan i. sbb nk g ikea, pastu nk g rewang, pastu nk g kursus, dan nak g GM jugak.
bab rewang tu, terlintas jgk kat fikiran - for my time (when it comes), orang mcm ni jugak tak? do 'people' will bersungguh mcm i tak? tapi pk2 balik, why do i think like that? that time pun tatau sampai ke tidak. just go with the flow.

i feel hiba for my best fren engagement next week. biasa lah, bila org dah ada commitment ni lain sikit cara dia treat kita sbb dia dah ada priority. yes, sbb tu kita takleh rely sgt kat orang.
i tak rely mana pun dekat my bff ni, tapi cukup utk giving feedbacks time kita bosan, sembang2 kosong, dan sembang kerja. i plak jenis kalau ade je soalan terpop-up kat kepala, memang terus nak text. trend kawan-kawan yg kita favor ni hilang satu2 kita bleh nampak. zaman dia single boleh lah nak melayan angin kita, and bila dia dah ade commitment - even couple hinggalah ke married, kita pun tak sanggup nak kacau atau mengadu mcm2 kat dia. dan it starts bringing the gap to the relationship. well, it is life, right. maka tinggalah daku yg alone ni membawa diri dalam kehidupan yg tatau apa yg akan dibentangkan kat depan ni. phew!

being alone at home for these few days just like me-time for me. banyaknya adalah makan.
dan sikit2 menyapu, sikit2 kemas rumah, tak bersepah pun tapi mengemas jugak.
and shopping online - ni mmg giler, bahaya weyh.
i did inai rambut, kali ni agak senang since dah g potong last weekend.
senang nak handle rambut pendek ni.
i am quite confident with this color , better than color inai ori-sbb aku rasa org kat salon tu impress lebih (atau dia tengok anehnya color rambut ahkak ni) sbb color rambut sis adalah gold. hahaha.
macam2 betul.

i hope the upcoming weeks would be great as usual.
i am madly excited but at the same time nervous jugak sbb poket dah hampir kosong ni.
adeii..

p/s : tiber aku ber i-u plak dlm entry kali ni..hahah.. kesssaaahhh!kbai!