training WILS

it is a BIG PHEW after having this 2 weeks training.
2 kali je dpt join, lain-lain duk bz kat IMD.
alhamdulillah for all commitment

versus

it is wrong to be right in these days.
you know why?
because everyone nak selamatkan perut sendiri and having the pot for their own sake.
it is okay if it wont affect anyone.
but when it comes to a teamwork kinda thing, it of course menyusahkan org.
and i personally think it is wrong.

and now i need to learn how to be 'slow' in doing thing,
how to slow down my passionate in completing tasks,
and neglecting some procedures to walk with these people.

and i dont like that.

and i cursing myself of doing that.

...and i do remind myself, 'people doing mistakes'..


not saying that i do not make mistake, but, membuat mistake dalam keadaan sedar is kind of silly i think. ke guane?

i hate when i am hating....myself dalam keadaan begini.

Allah, ampunkan aku.

doa

i wanna share a doa i got somewhere from FB account.
and i thought it is something to do with Ebit LEW.

"Ya Allah, sayangilah aku, sayangilah kedua ibu bapa ku, sayangilah keluargaku,
dan sayangilah orang-orang yang menyayangiku, sesungguhnya Engkaulah yg Maha Pengasih, lagi Maha Penyayang"

this doa covers you and your loved ones.
All.
So kalau ko nak disayangi Allah melalui doa ini,
sayangilah orang yg kau rasa akan berdoa menggunakan doa ini.
I do it, and i want to menyeru you to recite this doa too.
even not many followers and readers, at least i know one day when i read this post again,
if i miss this doa, i will able to recite it again.


Insha Allah.



rasa

in this new office (even dah 3y being here), lately people talk about marriage.
and i very bertegas bab-bab ini.
jangan nampak lembik sgt lah.
and i wont accept pengorbanan beria-ria sebelum you tie the knot with someone.
unless..

pengorbanan yang simple2 ok lah.
tapi kalau belom ape2 duit kau duit aku,
barang kau barang aku,
what derr kan.

and a fren cum a staff came and storied me yg dia mcm regret to accept her spouse now,
ape kau nak respon?
nasihat utk bersabar mmg kdg2 menyakitkan hati si penyampai.
cumanya aku bleh bagi strategies based on my logic je lah.
hmm..
tapi kalau dah bab2 monetary dia pun kau yg tanggung, berasa nak marah jugak lah.
kalau kawen lebih menyukarkan hidup kau, kau rasa?

it is very nice to watch movies and read books story-ing about life and love after marriage yang mana sweet-sweet blaka. but then how if it becomes worst?
sbb tu org kata kena pilih whether to accept or not.
the first anggukan kau masa engagement is yours decision, not anyone.
that you are willing to face the baik buruk busuk masam wangi manis semua pasangan kau itew.
and after that, hadap, jangan lari.
as for me, itu lah dia.
ye la, aku belom ke fasa itew, senang la cakap.
kau rasa senang ke nak cakap.
aku nak bagi advice ni mikir banyak kali secara deep and serious, apa yg boleh kau buat to save your marriage.
and also for those friends yang baru nak jejak ke dalam kancah kehidupan sebegitu.. (kancah kau, kau rasa jenayah ke?haha)
and of course they are all my frens who came and aske the advices.
and family, aku tak rasa depa  akan cari kita utk hal2 sebegini.
they also akan cari their friends right.

apa-apa pun, pk panjang lah..
jangan buat keputusan ikut rasa kau je.

kbai.


the blesses

last thursday, hari gaji, brought me to Watson (as usual port lepak)..
and i got a call.
"nikkkk!....aaaaaaaaaaaa"
it is a code for my bby sister which would be returned reply with the same aaaaaaaaaaa.
then i reply "bakpo mung?"
"aku dapat sambung blaja..."
and i was like "yaaayyy!"
and banyak benda popped out in my head.

even it was after rayuan, she is accepted to cont. her study.
know what, masa 1st tau aritu i thought i felt soo down for her.
tapi sempat aku bawak sembang for her to forget that thing and gave little hope that, well, you can do many things rather than sambung blaja you know.
but then deep in my heart, rasa nak menangis sedey tu ade.
mlm tu dia tido awal.

and i somehow arguing in my heart..
she is a good girl, why she wont get the place as what she wanted to.
tapi aku sempat la mengucap, qada qadar Allah.
and i forced her to make doa, i told mum to do that too.
and of course my self.
doa aku berbunyi "Allah, dia budak baik Allah, selalu tolong aku, jaga ma abah, jaga adik-adik, Kau bantu dia Ya Allah utnuk capai impian dia.." kinda thing.
and Allah sebaik-baik perancang, she got the place then.

well, yeah, bad things happen to good people.
good things also happen to good people either.

brase mcm mak-mak plak feeling dia.
when she asked me to send her to the uni this sunday, i was like a single-mother-sending-daughter-blaja plak. hehe..
dah la aritu nk g amik my little brother kat kolej the guard asked "amik anak ke kak"..
am i looked like a mother anak umur 20-an?
hey, i am only 32..
not all hantar-amik students are their parents okay..

and still, i have sorg lagi adik yg harus dirisaukan.
since being single for long time ni, the feeling like second parents plak.
over kan.
well, you know, everyone bz with family.
and since aku je mcm oh-free-willy and bleh cuti sesuka hati.
well, use me while you can.
soon, bos baru datang, we couldnt know mcmana kaedah pengendalian dia terhadap kuli2 spt haku inew..

and, with all my heart i wish Cik Tee, selamat belajar.
semoga jadi org berguna.

lps bayar yuran kau tadi aku termenung seketika.
no more handbag and shoes, and baju for these few months.
*menangis..


crush

the feeling when you crush zaman study dulu kala texting u after a while (years) promoting tudung wife dia jual.
kau rasa?

"hey, jual tdung plak ke?"
"tukar profesion plak.haha"

Cuba berbasa basi.

pfffttt..

know what, aku ni mudah feeling.
jangan lentok2 sgt ngn aku ni.bahaya.
bahaya sbb nt the promises rise again and...
and then you leave me just like that.
demiyu!

now i learn lots to stand with kau-dekat-dekat-ngan-aku-ni-nak-ape kinda thing.
kdg friendship depa ni lain mcm.
and itu la kekadang menghanyutkan aku ni.
haish..

semoga dielakkan menda2 negatip seprti ini...

dahle lately byk nau disogokkan dengan cerita2 spouse curang, spouse tak guna, spouse sampah kinda thing. my God, what happen to the world..huhu.


aamiinnn

and they were like "bes plak aku tgk hidup kau ni.."haha..i memang hepi sokmo.
slmat menjeles.
k bai.

Ootd Rabu

Time tudung elok.
Mood baek. Makeup kena. Hehe.