eh

i am full of curiosity about certain things.
sometimes ianya merimaskan.
yes, merimaskan.
kerana ia membuatkan aku akan berfikiran spt "eh, ko ni.."

contoh:
knapa ko bleh sepahkan baju sedangkan ko boleh masukkan ia dalam bakul laundry utk dibasuh.
knapa ko tak bleh consider the rules when u are in doing something like queuing, or even giving signal bila masuk simpang.
knapa ko tak bleh basuh cawan yg ko minum dan ko hanya membiarkan ia dalam sink.
knapa takleh cakap elok2 dengan orang tua yg tak buat hal ngn ko? (kalau buat hal lain citer).
knapa ko nak menyakitkan hati org, kalau ko tanak org sakitkan ati ko.
knapa takleh bercakap benar?
knapa..knapa..

setengah orang dia akan ckp, "laa, biarla dia.since ko takleh nak controll org, why not u control ur thought and let them be"
tak boleh, sebab dia akan menyukarkan org lain.
dia akan menyemakkan pemandangan org (spt aku).

aku rasa ni sindrom org umur pertengahan.

well, why dont u just obey the rules and jgn menyusahkan org?

akhlak

talking about physical appearance is sumting subjective and we are never right to say this and that..me kind of typical people who judging people by how they react to whatever business we have with them.
i am not blaming the religion to set standard rules on what we should wear, itu menjadikan kita manusia bertamadun dan bersahsiah dan diredhoi Allah dan menjauhkan kita kepada perkara-perkara keji dan mungkar.
cumanya adakah hati kita sesuci pemakaian kita.
bila pakai mengikut garis panduan yang betul, of course we should act like the way we dress..
sbb dengan sndirinya dia akan membentuk keperibadian.
mcm contoh ko solat pastu ko minum arak..
it is just not appropriate and tak sesuai.

mulut dan lidah itu juga aurat. perlu jaga sama.
aurat pnuturan kata, and tidak perlu menambah perisa utk kehidupan org lain.
lain la ko nk pertahankan your right in someting-something.
aku tak kata lah yg x ttup aurat, pakai ketat2 itu orgnya baik, tapi kalau hati ko baik, it was like, u need to wear hijab for balancing both aspects.
hijab is doesnt mean u pakai tudung belit2, wearing the 3-pin mcm nk g kesatria tu pon kira hijab what..

Islam adalah agama suci, ada standards yg perlu ko ikut, and balance.
pakaian, harus disusuli dengan akhlak yg baik.
pakaian menutup semua dengan akhlak yg tidak baik akan memberikan kecelaan kepada seseorang muslimah.
aku masih dalam proses berusaha ke arah itu.
akhlak aku pon bukanlah baik sgt, tapi tidaklah keji.
aku adalah org kebanyakan yang masih blur2 dengan full of curiousity and judging based on experience and guidelines.

tolong laa..these would bring the hatred for those yg mmg muslimah baik2.
and if kita sndiri sesama islam memandang itu tidak sempurna, mana kita nak dakwah org bukan islam masuk islam. mana kita nk dakwah org yg acah2 nak berubah kepada kebaikan..
memang, itu tuntutan, tapi, jgn la ko mencemarkan prinsip itu dengan akhlak dan emosi ko yang memberikan org menyampah berdabel2..

mende aku merapu, tapi yang aku nak sampaikan is:-
tolong la sesuaikan pemakaian ko dengan akhlak.
pakaian dah ok, akhlak perlulah ok juge.

i face those people who wearing hijab and mulismah ayu yang membawa kepada hasutan yang boleh memecah belahkan kehidupan kami sekeluarga.
banyak tafsiran, when we ask the ahkak2 usrah mmg depa akan spt, "because of nila setitik, u would label us like that?"
bukan mcm tu, tapi, why u not u manage "these people" to be good muslimah and contoh manusia unggul dulu, then people would get inspire by looking at them rather than menyelar org itu org ini ke neraka. tahukah engkau redho tuhan dalam pelbagai aspek. mungkin dengan dia menyelamatkan anjing tepi jalan, bagi makan kucing tepi jalan, Allah redho dia akan ke syurga. kau mana tau?

hmmm..marilah sesama kita berakhlak mulia.
kalau salah pandangan dan rungutan aku ni mohon dibimbing.
tapi aku tgh geram dan kecewa since i give my respect to "these people", tinggi, tapi skang rasa mcm ranap dan menyakitkan ati.
oh my people.

final sem

final test for the final semester

i went to kursus the whole week last week, and that required me to stay at shah alam for a week.

rasa mcm krikk kriikk juga lah.

but since i have exam, bz dengan study je lah.

tapi aku tsilap buat ERD diagram. temenung jgklah seminit dua bila mengingatkannya..

mungkinkah nasib dia akan sama seperti subject OIS..huhu.

jatuh lagi CGPA aku nanti..

menangis kemudian tiadalah berguna.

tak kesah, janji dah abes azab itu.

so now, i need to focus on thesis.

ape pon xde lg ni.

mygudness..

kecoh psl ptptn..

alhamdulillah dah setel smua.

masih ade berbaki tujuh K stengah.

hmm..xpe lah..bayar sesikit.

struggle

fighting!

i have not more than a month to finish what i have started.
thanks kak qis for always sabar dengan orang.
i am very the bekeng partner right?
hehe

selfish

hye,

it still raining out there.
and i am sitting here at this hour to start my daily routine,
know what, i really want to write about SELFISH.

i dont know lah what others' thought about selfish.
but for me, i would be a selfish when it come to the end of the world.
sometime i try to be selfish, and it really hard, i force to be one.
tapi kadang2 end up dengan "what am doing?huh".
tapi orang..?

when in talking we just story about you.
when we discussing we discuss about you.
the priority is always on you.
tak perasan ke?

ntah lah.
when i got the hate feeling, kang kata aku letak feeling kat a frenship plak.
but, am i stupid for still being here with you?
no, nobody is stupid.
just i cant escape from go far from you.

take for granted kah dia nya?
atau aku yg serupa tunggul mengikut.

raining and fren.

it is raining right here..
well, tday is monday, blues is around the corner.
but last nite i was woke up at 416am and cant sleep even hardly tired like sakit pinggang but still cant further sleep anymore..hujan petir smua wasnt the inspiration anymore.
for the last seminar i stayed at my fren apartment whixch she lives there with her Catnis, a cat..huhu.
nevermind, a cat pon a cat lah.

by the way, lepak with a fren who know u for a long time is kind a theraphy, who would bash and smash u in everything u did wrong without any filter..
of course they are better than who cover2 and comfort u in anyway.
kalau sakit ati pon at least she telling u the truth, and not aibkan u in public kinda thing.
kata fren for a life time kan.
pedih tu mmg dah.
but  dah memang itulah the reality.
i just like oke fine, i would learn the lesson.
and she just like "last time pon ckp camtu jugak, hey!wake up pls"
and..i was like, telan je mee and cont asking, tukar topic and talk about theses and assignments..haha.
tau pon salah sndiri.

i am not a good fren.
a put in more emotion on a frenship.
i expect more more a relationship.
i build a high hope in everything.
i take serious in every single thing.
and...i believe in miracle yang tak wujud.
oh my..dun dance in others wind.
and.. i admit that..its all about me.
huhu.