in this new office (even dah 3y being here), lately people talk about marriage.
and i very bertegas bab-bab ini.
jangan nampak lembik sgt lah.
and i wont accept pengorbanan beria-ria sebelum you tie the knot with someone.
unless..
pengorbanan yang simple2 ok lah.
tapi kalau belom ape2 duit kau duit aku,
barang kau barang aku,
what derr kan.
and a fren cum a staff came and storied me yg dia mcm regret to accept her spouse now,
ape kau nak respon?
nasihat utk bersabar mmg kdg2 menyakitkan hati si penyampai.
cumanya aku bleh bagi strategies based on my logic je lah.
hmm..
tapi kalau dah bab2 monetary dia pun kau yg tanggung, berasa nak marah jugak lah.
kalau kawen lebih menyukarkan hidup kau, kau rasa?
it is very nice to watch movies and read books story-ing about life and love after marriage yang mana sweet-sweet blaka. but then how if it becomes worst?
sbb tu org kata kena pilih whether to accept or not.
the first anggukan kau masa engagement is yours decision, not anyone.
that you are willing to face the baik buruk busuk masam wangi manis semua pasangan kau itew.
and after that, hadap, jangan lari.
as for me, itu lah dia.
ye la, aku belom ke fasa itew, senang la cakap.
kau rasa senang ke nak cakap.
aku nak bagi advice ni mikir banyak kali secara deep and serious, apa yg boleh kau buat to save your marriage.
and also for those friends yang baru nak jejak ke dalam kancah kehidupan sebegitu.. (kancah kau, kau rasa jenayah ke?haha)
and of course they are all my frens who came and aske the advices.
and family, aku tak rasa depa akan cari kita utk hal2 sebegini.
they also akan cari their friends right.
apa-apa pun, pk panjang lah..
jangan buat keputusan ikut rasa kau je.
kbai.
the blesses
last thursday, hari gaji, brought me to Watson (as usual port lepak)..
and i got a call.
"nikkkk!....aaaaaaaaaaaa"
it is a code for my bby sister which would be returned reply with the same aaaaaaaaaaa.
then i reply "bakpo mung?"
"aku dapat sambung blaja..."
and i was like "yaaayyy!"
and banyak benda popped out in my head.
even it was after rayuan, she is accepted to cont. her study.
know what, masa 1st tau aritu i thought i felt soo down for her.
tapi sempat aku bawak sembang for her to forget that thing and gave little hope that, well, you can do many things rather than sambung blaja you know.
but then deep in my heart, rasa nak menangis sedey tu ade.
mlm tu dia tido awal.
and i somehow arguing in my heart..
she is a good girl, why she wont get the place as what she wanted to.
tapi aku sempat la mengucap, qada qadar Allah.
and i forced her to make doa, i told mum to do that too.
and of course my self.
doa aku berbunyi "Allah, dia budak baik Allah, selalu tolong aku, jaga ma abah, jaga adik-adik, Kau bantu dia Ya Allah utnuk capai impian dia.." kinda thing.
and Allah sebaik-baik perancang, she got the place then.
well, yeah, bad things happen to good people.
good things also happen to good people either.
brase mcm mak-mak plak feeling dia.
when she asked me to send her to the uni this sunday, i was like a single-mother-sending-daughter-blaja plak. hehe..
dah la aritu nk g amik my little brother kat kolej the guard asked "amik anak ke kak"..
am i looked like a mother anak umur 20-an?
hey, i am only 32..
not all hantar-amik students are their parents okay..
and still, i have sorg lagi adik yg harus dirisaukan.
since being single for long time ni, the feeling like second parents plak.
over kan.
well, you know, everyone bz with family.
and since aku je mcm oh-free-willy and bleh cuti sesuka hati.
well, use me while you can.
soon, bos baru datang, we couldnt know mcmana kaedah pengendalian dia terhadap kuli2 spt haku inew..
and, with all my heart i wish Cik Tee, selamat belajar.
semoga jadi org berguna.
lps bayar yuran kau tadi aku termenung seketika.
no more handbag and shoes, and baju for these few months.
*menangis..
and i got a call.
"nikkkk!....aaaaaaaaaaaa"
it is a code for my bby sister which would be returned reply with the same aaaaaaaaaaa.
then i reply "bakpo mung?"
"aku dapat sambung blaja..."
and i was like "yaaayyy!"
and banyak benda popped out in my head.
even it was after rayuan, she is accepted to cont. her study.
know what, masa 1st tau aritu i thought i felt soo down for her.
tapi sempat aku bawak sembang for her to forget that thing and gave little hope that, well, you can do many things rather than sambung blaja you know.
but then deep in my heart, rasa nak menangis sedey tu ade.
mlm tu dia tido awal.
and i somehow arguing in my heart..
she is a good girl, why she wont get the place as what she wanted to.
tapi aku sempat la mengucap, qada qadar Allah.
and i forced her to make doa, i told mum to do that too.
and of course my self.
doa aku berbunyi "Allah, dia budak baik Allah, selalu tolong aku, jaga ma abah, jaga adik-adik, Kau bantu dia Ya Allah utnuk capai impian dia.." kinda thing.
and Allah sebaik-baik perancang, she got the place then.
well, yeah, bad things happen to good people.
good things also happen to good people either.
brase mcm mak-mak plak feeling dia.
when she asked me to send her to the uni this sunday, i was like a single-mother-sending-daughter-blaja plak. hehe..
dah la aritu nk g amik my little brother kat kolej the guard asked "amik anak ke kak"..
am i looked like a mother anak umur 20-an?
hey, i am only 32..
not all hantar-amik students are their parents okay..
and still, i have sorg lagi adik yg harus dirisaukan.
since being single for long time ni, the feeling like second parents plak.
over kan.
well, you know, everyone bz with family.
and since aku je mcm oh-free-willy and bleh cuti sesuka hati.
well, use me while you can.
soon, bos baru datang, we couldnt know mcmana kaedah pengendalian dia terhadap kuli2 spt haku inew..
and, with all my heart i wish Cik Tee, selamat belajar.
semoga jadi org berguna.
lps bayar yuran kau tadi aku termenung seketika.
no more handbag and shoes, and baju for these few months.
*menangis..
crush
the feeling when you crush zaman study dulu kala texting u after a while (years) promoting tudung wife dia jual.
kau rasa?
"hey, jual tdung plak ke?"
"tukar profesion plak.haha"
Cuba berbasa basi.
pfffttt..
know what, aku ni mudah feeling.
jangan lentok2 sgt ngn aku ni.bahaya.
bahaya sbb nt the promises rise again and...
and then you leave me just like that.
demiyu!
now i learn lots to stand with kau-dekat-dekat-ngan-aku-ni-nak-ape kinda thing.
kdg friendship depa ni lain mcm.
and itu la kekadang menghanyutkan aku ni.
haish..
semoga dielakkan menda2 negatip seprti ini...
dahle lately byk nau disogokkan dengan cerita2 spouse curang, spouse tak guna, spouse sampah kinda thing. my God, what happen to the world..huhu.
and they were like "bes plak aku tgk hidup kau ni.."haha..i memang hepi sokmo.
slmat menjeles.
k bai.
kau rasa?
"hey, jual tdung plak ke?"
"tukar profesion plak.haha"
Cuba berbasa basi.
pfffttt..
know what, aku ni mudah feeling.
jangan lentok2 sgt ngn aku ni.bahaya.
bahaya sbb nt the promises rise again and...
and then you leave me just like that.
demiyu!
now i learn lots to stand with kau-dekat-dekat-ngan-aku-ni-nak-ape kinda thing.
kdg friendship depa ni lain mcm.
and itu la kekadang menghanyutkan aku ni.
haish..
semoga dielakkan menda2 negatip seprti ini...
dahle lately byk nau disogokkan dengan cerita2 spouse curang, spouse tak guna, spouse sampah kinda thing. my God, what happen to the world..huhu.
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| aamiinnn |
and they were like "bes plak aku tgk hidup kau ni.."haha..i memang hepi sokmo.
slmat menjeles.
k bai.
Bengkel Siri 2
it was our second time organizing the bengkel katalog dan pengkelasan to all guru pusat sumber sekolah menengah negeri tganu since the 1st one kita tak mlibatkan semua daerah.
so mana2 yg tcicir ituari kita masukkan dlm bgkel ni.
the same penceramahs, cuma yg berbezanya ajk seorang dua.
and lokasi.
this time we did it at Tanjung Demong Beach Resort, Kuala Besut (15-17 August).
tapi kami tiba di resort 2 days before. and the 1st day we attending meeting at school, and preparing apa yang patut.
Alhamdulillah, we, 11 orang, dapat melaksanakan dengan jayanya program ni.
cuma slack aku je lambat bagi air masa bigboss batuk bagi speech aluan.
YB plak yang hulur air ke bos. malu seyh.
tapi tade plak soseh2 lepas bengkel tu. cumanya i felt unease of that.hmm..
even cameraman kali ni tersangatlah amatur, still, gambar ade...here some:-
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| jawatankuasa bengkel |
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| smpat kak aida bagi lip gloss. ttiba pakai lipgloss pink.haha |
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| org2 kuat bengkel |
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| Aku pun baru blaja time bengkel ni. yg siri 1 dah paham aritu. tapi sbb 4 bln tinggal aku baru la nk refresh smula. seb baik ade zaidi |
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| pengacara majlis asyik duk tanya pantun. haha..kalo aku, memang hancus. |
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| seluar senteng.. hahaha. dem! |
sabar
i really feel that my siblings (and I) were kurang sabar in various different things.
and one of us (i found that) memang kurang sabar bab2 makan.
and he would be like "cepat laa..lapar" kinda thing mcm tak menyempat.
and i dont like that.
my sulking heart brought me to drive early to Dungun.
i feel unease to be with him around since cakap pun tak guna.
it was the second time i facing that thing directly and it was very menyakitkan hati.
well, tell me that it is one of the faktor usia kinda thing but i feel very hard when people talkback to me. kalau benda aku buat tu tak betul i am very open to accept.
tapi kalau benda obviously memang melibatkan org lain dan ko sorg je yg problem i would not compromise.
tak pe lah.
tapi sakit hati.
kbai
and one of us (i found that) memang kurang sabar bab2 makan.
and he would be like "cepat laa..lapar" kinda thing mcm tak menyempat.
and i dont like that.
my sulking heart brought me to drive early to Dungun.
i feel unease to be with him around since cakap pun tak guna.
it was the second time i facing that thing directly and it was very menyakitkan hati.
well, tell me that it is one of the faktor usia kinda thing but i feel very hard when people talkback to me. kalau benda aku buat tu tak betul i am very open to accept.
tapi kalau benda obviously memang melibatkan org lain dan ko sorg je yg problem i would not compromise.
tak pe lah.
tapi sakit hati.
kbai
memories
i learn that, if you wanna forget the moments u have created with someone, go to that place over and over again and create another moment.
well, u know what i meant.
just create another moment, and the memories would be redundant and the newest would be in front.
haha.
boleh tak camtu?
well, u know what i meant.
just create another moment, and the memories would be redundant and the newest would be in front.
haha.
boleh tak camtu?
last minute
i am not a last minute person , thus i feel bad for people who do so.
especially when the tasks given a month or two sebelum hari kejadian.
and tup2 you come and tell "cik hani, dukacita..bla.bla.."
aku dah tak de feel nak marah ke nak apa since it would broke my excitement nak ke programnya besok. kecik besor je aku nengok ke budak ni.
i, personally, sangat appreciate org yg sejujurnya cakap dia tak leh buat, dari ko menyanggup and then at last you come out with nothing.
kalau aku ade kudrat ko akan mendengar bebelan kesal aku paling kurang 15min.
so arini sbb mls nk g bfast and the drink pon fresh2 green tea je, mmg aku pandang je la muka kau sambil senyum sinis.
beb, senyum sinis aku memang boleh membuatkan org marah seharian okeh..
kadang makan tahun.
tapi kalo ko x terasa tu memang ko hati kebal.
and because i am not a last minute people, i dun like people gimme task bagi arini esok nak, pastu data dalam tu nak macam2. u know what, aku tunggu tengok je ketua group bila nak assign tugas since group lain dah comeout with sort of report. itu pon sbb aku replace dia meeting crosscheck report. if not i wont know what actually happen in that jawatankuasa report. oh mai God.
i salute those people who could manage to do work last minute, bcz i am not.
plz la, kalau tak menyusahkan org, its okay, tapi kalau dah kacau tentatif program kita, it is a chaos.
aku ni bukannye buleh.
if not, the result pun tak semenggah mana lah.
dont blame me for the uncompleteness tuh.
k bai.
*sakit ati smbil kecewa
especially when the tasks given a month or two sebelum hari kejadian.
and tup2 you come and tell "cik hani, dukacita..bla.bla.."
aku dah tak de feel nak marah ke nak apa since it would broke my excitement nak ke programnya besok. kecik besor je aku nengok ke budak ni.
i, personally, sangat appreciate org yg sejujurnya cakap dia tak leh buat, dari ko menyanggup and then at last you come out with nothing.
kalau aku ade kudrat ko akan mendengar bebelan kesal aku paling kurang 15min.
so arini sbb mls nk g bfast and the drink pon fresh2 green tea je, mmg aku pandang je la muka kau sambil senyum sinis.
beb, senyum sinis aku memang boleh membuatkan org marah seharian okeh..
kadang makan tahun.
tapi kalo ko x terasa tu memang ko hati kebal.
and because i am not a last minute people, i dun like people gimme task bagi arini esok nak, pastu data dalam tu nak macam2. u know what, aku tunggu tengok je ketua group bila nak assign tugas since group lain dah comeout with sort of report. itu pon sbb aku replace dia meeting crosscheck report. if not i wont know what actually happen in that jawatankuasa report. oh mai God.
i salute those people who could manage to do work last minute, bcz i am not.
plz la, kalau tak menyusahkan org, its okay, tapi kalau dah kacau tentatif program kita, it is a chaos.
aku ni bukannye buleh.
if not, the result pun tak semenggah mana lah.
dont blame me for the uncompleteness tuh.
k bai.
*sakit ati smbil kecewa
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