little homey

i got the key to my heart home semalam.
got so nervous and so excited.
thus i share with my close ones.

dato' malek smiled widely dan looked at me like i was a child dapat candies.
who cares kan. dia msti tau betapa orang dapat 1st home camana.

deep in my heart actually i want to celeb this moment with 'you', but since Allah still wont us to get close, i is simpan this excitement. nanti when 'you' come of course kita celeb skali lagi. omg bilaa??

i need to make arrangement, do interior whatsoever so soon hope 'you' come and impress.
haha. harapnya lah.

let's shopping!!

parents-care-days

after experiencing jaga ma yang sakit baru aku tau betapa Allah puts high  rewards for those yang jaga parents yang dah tak berdaya. it really requires you high patient and semua jenis yang high2.

abah sakit takpe mak ada, tapi kalau mak sakit ko tgk lah camne keadaan abah ko.

from now on aku sangat respect kalau the husband could really understand and sama-sama turut menjaga the wife time depa sakit.

respect tahap tabik springggg....

for this experience, aku lagi choosy dalam memilih dengan sapa aku nak hidup sampai akhir hayat.

boleh tak org ni nak jaga aku, nak sama-sama dengan aku susah senang.

sejauh mana?

banyak sgt pk ye..hmm.

was-was.

ok lah, tawakal.

Rarecation: Perth

hi..

unbelievable i tak post vacay 16 mac aritu kat sini ye.

that was my 2nd time out of bumi Malaysia tanah airku ni.

Yes, i is jakun overload but lebih kepada Allah-Maha-Kaya-menjadikan-kita-berbagai-kaum-dan-geography.

that was unplan trip yang sapa-nak-g-pm-laju2.

i sbnrnya silent follower yang ikut je ex-classmates-trip ni. depa yang study, i just folo and comfort and tolong pape yang patut. atau lebih kepada meramaikan rombongan sahaja but fun.

sbb jadi follower, u cant demand lelebih, ikut saje, jangan buat hal hehe.

kailies. dtg jejauh makan fish and chips tawar.
tapi scenery dia cantik.

yang ni bes, sand boarding.

ni time baru smpai.

5 hari 4 malam, tapi flight delay, so tambah lagi 1 malam.

yg 1 malam tu memang lena di airport je.

so much great experience there.

paling sukar is nak cari makanan halal. 

nak communicate tu boleh lagi la even english speaking i broken teruk.

omg, thanks for the experience.

'til next trip gais!.

LOL.

current

long time not sharing things here.

life recently quite good.
tapi perangai takut utk accept and terus hanyut dalam the goodness of life still menebal dalam diri.
sebab takut Allah hanya bagi pinjam sementara.
dan one time bila Dia amik balik hati akan sakit.
anyhow i tawakkal je and follow the flow.
live life with kindness and spread love not hatred.

and somehow i am trying to lowered my standard and ignoring the flaws.
ye, ai bukannya perfect pon. tapi itu la kan, people talk and most concern flaws even sebanyak mana baik yang ada dalam diri seseorang. humm..

we are comparing current situation dengan life yang dulu, sebab takut life yang takbest keep repeating and hati pedih hati sedih mengadap benda yang sama.
bukan kita tanak buka hati, tapi since kita tak tau hala mana hubungan kita, jadi i keep that in my heart dulu and listen to what actually dia nak kita ada dalam life dia.
(eh, cakap psl hubungan plak dah ..haih).
jangan buat ai perasan boleh tak??

kita berusaha untuk tidak fall dalam satu-satu hubungan sbb nanti termalu sendiri kalau tetiba life is not as what we expected it to be (lebih kepada what I expected it to be..huhu).
dan my biggest problem is ai tak pandai nak bersederhana dalam membina relationship.


..my time is not waiting. and i prefer not to waste my time with wrong people.
how would i know dia is the right or wrong one huh?


conflict lagi.huhu.

hati

lots of things happened, in every single day passed.
all the challenges accepted.
and i found that my heart becomes kentang from days to days.
which i am scared if this heart becomes keras. well, u know what i mean.

recently i can be warm-hearted, but i can be cold-hearted at once.
dulu mcm payah, sikit2 kesian kat orang.
i am very afraid if i would become a selfish in person.

experiences, memang mematangkan.
dan aku salahkan diri sndiri kerana terlalu berlembut dengan orang.
tapi, efek pulak kat suatu yang mcm ni.
omg.

jauhkanlah dari mendongak ke langit.
moga diberi bimbingan dan hidayah terus pasakkan hati ke bumi.
sampai mati.


amin..

tech

here my mind goes when i want to escape from stress of work
*padehal dah lama x tulis entry, x stress ke?huhu.

my staffs' face tadi melopong (mungkin terpaksa dgr) conclusion aku pasal searching technology.
kah kah.
bicara ilmiah sangat.
tapi aku nk cakap juga kehkeh.

it is about searching tech yg develop in few strategies and methods.
from keyword search pastu ke barcode, skang dah QR code.
recently dah ade Visual Search, and kat negara maju dah ade voice search.
mampu ke kita nk kejar smua tu?
*semua melopong lagi.haha
pastu aku recall balik kelas info strategy Dr Sohaimi 2 years back yg dia cerita pasal crawling, SEO dan ecetra2 yg umpama bedtime story yang kita rasa WOW, ade tech mcm ni, camana laa org tu pk so on so forth.
pastu skang all the preferences yg kita search kat gadjet reflects all the adv yg appear kat smua medso yg kita ada IG, FB etc. camana dia tau psl apa yg kita search? ini smua IP dan keyword yg crawl tu tarik semua info as what we have been search. itu dalam bahasa mudah la.

yang kita di ofis ni masih duk sembang psl keberadaan di opis, org lain keja dari rumah boleh je commit ko pehal nk hilang2 dari tempat kj.huhu. kj kat opis yg org tgk pun x siap ini nk keja ngn company maklumat yg setting coding sambil jaga anak masak nasik? babai laa.

aku sbnrnya nak diorg yg duk dlm unit maklumat ni tau perkembangan pencarian maklumat ni.
aku pun perati je, pastu conclude sndiri.
citer Korea tu jgn tgk saja, tgk tech dia sama.

sekian, perkongsian ilmiah.
yg benar, librarian :))

nak apa?

life is going well 'till tday.
ada laa sikit2 chaos which is aku rasa tade la memberi impak into mylife.
the past is past.

and after all, when u just can ignore them and keep your life going,
the head pun tak pening, life pon smooth,
i could call it as matang.
well, i have been thru 34 this year, harus la matang kan.
*kadang2 tidak juga.

sometimes we just let people do whatever they want to do to our life
without fighting back that on apa yang kita sendiri nak dalam hidup kita.
it is not being selfish but jangan jadi insan yang lemah dan biarkan orang buat kita.
the phrase of 'biar orang buat kita, jangan kita buat orang' should be revised a little which is should be 'jangan biar orang buat kita' kinda thing.

and this...i wonder have created haters pretty much.
sebelum ni pun haters ade time kita elok2 ada caring about the crowd, and most gave their empathy dan mgkin memandang kita dengan hati yg kesian.
oh, dunia.

bila kita jadi seperti apa yg org treat kita, tahu pula melenting.
but it is what you want us to be, dont mean lah kan.
then out of sudden the rumors spread and kills.
what a life.

dah tu nak apa?