blessing day

last week i was membebel2 after knowing that my name has been picked as a respondent for uni happiness index. i was like "why me, i am not happy to be selected to join the happiness prog especially on my weekend!". padahal tak gembira sebab clash dengan activiti menyiapkan dulang hantaran. ngeh3.

and the officer who incharge calling me when i was at the meeting at Besut, telling that you may represent other at the same level. and i was like "oke fine, i will send someone replacing me"..
pastu tetiba postpone. nak juge aku pegi tu.haha.

it was a research program to rank the uni, involving 8 representatives from this campus, and kelantan.
it was a happy program, everyone enjoyed, tapi masa present ade sedikit kekerutan pada presenter since unhappiness have been clarified and expressed very well. agaknya kalau buat time weekend haritu makin tinggi index unhappiness. haha.

whatever.

i am not too much in complaining about the campus since, biasa la.
compared to others, mine was very small things..
bersyukur banyak ke camana ni?
cuma ade la sikit2 bab system and process of doc and proposals je.
thanks Allah for the positiveness.

and balik je office i have been surprised with the present from students.
ohmyGod, i am so blessed.
and few minutes then there was another student texting me for a dinner treat as a return for assisting her for independent study.
oh my.
tak perlu rasanya sampai ke begitu sekali.
mungkin Allah mau uji, ko nk riak ke camana?
mungkin juga satu blessing.

and i also got a pos laju.
presenting the faculty journal.
publishing my article from my independent study research.
oh my.

what a happy day.
thank you Allah.

syawal

baru ade mood update gambo raya.
mana yg ade je.
DSLR rosak.
mmg dem la kan time2 gini nak rosak.
seb baik la vivo V3 tu ok gamba dia.
boleh la dari tade

Anak2 abg aku.
anis. aina.
kalo jalan ngn aku org kata aku mak dia.
pffftt..

keluarga abg aku . tanpa abg aku.
dia mmg raya 1st je pakai bj raya,
pastu tatau dia g mana dah lps tu.

famili kakak aku yg kdua.
kakak yg pertama raya umah mertua.
subuh2 ari dah xde

Aku. sorg.
sobsss...

ciktee yg bergaya

fotogenik dia sorg.hehe
org raya gembira. kita tunduk pandang lantai je.
sobbbss skali lagi

raya 1st dengan smua ahli keluarga aku.
tambah keluarga pakdo Said dan keluarga poksu Ya.
aku tu sebenarnya nak melompat.
haha..
raya.
mestila seronok.
kalau terasa nak hambar tu, kita la yg create the moments.
kan..baru la dia tak jadi sendu sorg2.
bawak2 la bergembira di hari yang mulia.
Salam lebaran u ols..

malas

aku start puasa Syawal hari ni.
tapi rasa tak larat dowh.
pagi aku bangun sahur campak2 spageti tak abis smlm, buh sket bawang putih letak ayam.
hasilnya, tak rasa ape.
pastu tak abes.
minum susu dua gelas, air putih segelas, then melepet tepi katil nunggu subuh.
this might be the effect of smlm takleh tdo sbb melantak air teh lipton hazelnut sampai dua gelas.
teruk betul kafein dia.
dah takbleh terima kafein ke ape bdan aku ni.


sebenarnya sgt byk keja tapi syaiton betul lah, malas.
aku dalam misi nak mengurangkan makan sbb aku rasa dah overweight.
bila dah overweight aku jadi malas bergerak.
pastu ia berkait dengan malas.
puasa itu lain citer. ia untuk kawal nafsu nafsi.
kawal perut belum tentu..huhu.

misi turunkan berat badan ni dateline hujung tahun.
inshaAllah.

moody

people still in raya mood but me, dah rasa faded...
tday kat office ade jamuan raya.
but then pagi2 i asked my staff to report what she did for the xvtvt petang nanti.
and all reported news were very frustrated.

u know what, i dunno lah if my perception and standard is too high in every single tasks given or even for every people i deal with. i put full of trust and hope that semua keja tersebut akan berjalan dengan lancar since i also do that in every tasks given to me.
but recently i feel like everyone dah mcm pijak kepala and slowly count keja depa buat.
eh, meh sini kau aku nak berkire juga apa aku dah buat.
meh kita timbang mana lebih banyak.
dont u have in mind that orang lain juga punya masalah sndiri kalau ko kata ko ade mslh.
it is about how u handle lah.
u say u stress, org lain kau igt seronok?
and tergamak u said u want to give up all the tasks given to u.. hey, then tak yah keja and go out from this office. this organization also doesnt need u anymore. we also give up on u lah.

why people like this?
or...am i too pushy?
may be i am not good in leading people.